Laura was born at 2.15am Wednesday 15th May weighing 7lb 6 1/2 ozs she laid on my chest and I swear she looked straight at me I remember thinking how beautiful this tiny little thing was. She grew big and strong loved her food, it soon became apparent that she wasn’t meeting her mile stones but I wasn’t overly worried all children develop differently but as she got older it became more and more noticeable, she was diagnosed with Global Developmental Delay and she also had only the sight of one eye, but despite all of this she never complained, she had her temper tantrums like all toddlers, she loved her cuddles too which is something she never grew out of. She started Jessop nursery in 1995 which was attached to a mainstream school but it soon became clear that they couldn’t meet her needs and was placed into a special needs school Turney in Dulwich she loved it there made lots of friends and really flourished. In 1996 Laura’s sister Tara was born at first Laura wasn’t sure she’d had me all to herself for 5yrs and suddenly there was this screaming bundle of joy to contend with but she coped and she doted on her until Tara got older and they started to fight as siblings do. The following year 1997 we moved from Herne Hill to Croydon as Laura was doing so well at her school they allowed her to stay there even though it was out of the area. She continued to do well made new friends and was just a happy little girl, in 2000 we moved (again) not too far away we went to New Addington so this meant the girls now had their own rooms, Laura loved that, she was in her element watching her videos in her room she had a real passion for The Simpsons especially Marge and also Snow White and Tom and Jerry. We were only there about 2 weeks when Laura had her first seizure, she was diagnosed as being Epileptic the following year, it started as night time seizures but they weren’t too bad she would go months without any then months with 3 or 4 every night or other night. In 2004 Laura’s other sister Della was born who Laura idolised, life was happy and we were all so content, we had our special Saturday nights when we would cuddle up on the sofa and watch X factor or pop idol what ever was on and then Casualty all the while munching on a bag of sweets, those Saturday nights were so precious I will never forget them. In 2005/6 it became apparent that Turney were no longer meeting Laura’s needs so we looked into other schools, we found the perfect one for her Greenvale in Forest Hill and Laura started there in October 2006, she loved her new uniform and new school bag and couldn’t wait to go every day, Laura’s seizures were getting worse now and they had gone from just being at night to occurring any time day or night, yet still she didn’t complain. October 2007 we had a family holiday at Haven in Clacton Laura had the best time dancing and singing she even won the raffle which was like winning the world cup to her she loved that holiday. When we got home and she went back to school her seizures had got much worse, she was fitting everyday I went to pick her up several times from school yet still she never complained she smiled throughout. We were so close we would walk arm in arm wherever we went, she followed me into the kitchen at home to the shower room even to the toilet she was amazing. Just before Christmas last year her fits seemed to get worse, Christmas day she had a few seizures but she also had a lovely day, she didn’t get to play with all her toys she played on the laptop I’d got her that was her favourite and she read her book from Tara it was a Disney princess book she loved that, she wore her Simpsons slippers from her cousin and wore her Marge t-shirt I’d got her and sat in her inflatable Simpsons chair. Christmas night she was so tired I put her to bed tucked her in told her I loved her and her reply was “love you too” something we told each other every night, I went to check on her an hour later and found her not breathing, I called the ambulance and gave her mouth to mouth, the paramedics were fantastic they worked on Laura for about ¾ of an hour before taking her to hospital, once there the Doctors tried but it was too late my beautiful girl was gone. I don’t know why I didn’t hear anything that night normally Laura’s seizures were very vocal and I always heard her but this night I never, and I’ll never forgive myself for that ever. Laura's funeral was a real tribute to her, she had the most beautiful coffin it was covered in thick white material with flowers embossed on to it, so many people came and we sang 3 songs that had a special meaning they were R Kelly I believe i can fly, Laura performed that at school once in front of her class she was so proud and would sing it at home for us, Leanne Rimes Can't fight the moonlight, we were on holiday one year and Laura wanted to have a go on karaoke this was the song she sang the staff helped her and half way through she turned round to me and said "Mummy I sing well" that made me cry, when she had finished the crowd stood and clapped and cheered she was so proud, the last one was R Kelly The worlds greatest, I would play that in the car and everytime I would turn round to all 3 of my girls and say to them "this one's for all of you cos your all the greatest", we also played All things bright and beautiful because that's what she was and Lord of the Dance she really loved to dance. Laura really was a gift from God to me she was perfect my little Angel and now she’s a real Angel. I’ll always miss and love you and my heart will always be with you, good night my sweet Angel. Mummy X